Time

I seem to keep getting messages about TIME lately.

Maybe it's because I seem to have a lot of it free lately

or

maybe the Universe is trying to send me a message...

I've always been sensitive to feeling the pressure of time.

   I have learned I thrive under a deadline, that rush of racing the clock, 

but I'm also painfully aware when it feels like it's slipping away. 

You're gonna laugh, but I used to believe that I was going to die young. 

Now I have no clue where that feeling had come from, but in my teens I felt like my time here was going to be short-lived.

So my master plan was to go to college & study what I loved ~ fashion ~ get in, get out in 2 years & start having an amazing live, squeezing in all the goodness I could before my TIME was up...

Thankfully somewhere in my early 20's that notion seemed to fade 

& I began to relax a little.

So when reference after reference about time kept popping up over the past couple of weeks, it became apparent I needed to listen.

It started when a friend told me about this movie from a few years back called "Timer".

The basic plot is you can have a timer that will tell you when you'll meet your soul mate.

My immediate thought was "nooooooooo, I so would not want to know!"

It's like looking for your presents before Christmas, knowing takes all the fun & surprise out of it!

But with a quiet Saturday night in, I curled up with my Netflix & got lost in the quest for love.

I quite enjoyed the movie, mostly because it brought up so many questions ~

How would you spend your time while waiting for the clock to tick down?

Would you give a nice guy you met today a chance if your timer said he was still 8 months away?

If you're given a match date way into the future, do you live it up & enjoy all the men you meet, with no commitment, no strings attached?

Or do you get focused on your career, get all the pieces in place so when love arrives, you're ready?

What if you're timer is blank? 

Do you still believe in love? 

Can you find it organically anyways? 

What if you meet your soulmate according to your timer when you're still so young, do you miss out on a variety dating experiences?

I can see where knowing that your mate exists, or that love will happen, can give some peace & reassurance, even hope, but I wonder at what cost?

What or who else may you miss out on while you count it down? 

I'm curious ~ would you want a timer?

And if maybe not a timer, would you use an app that'll tell you when you'll get married?

Yep, it exists!

TIME (as in the magazine) has come up with an app that can tell you roughly when you'll be walking down that aisle by just accessing your Facebook page.

I know, right?!

I figured I've already given access to Tinder find me love from Facebook, 

I might as well get a good laugh & see what they predict.

Right after I clicked the button, I panicked!

What if it said "oops, you missed it, you were supposed to do that 7 years ago" or

"yeah, don't hold your breath"?

Kinda funny since I've never pictured my wedding.

 I never had the 'til death do us part, I do fantasy in my head, so why was an app causing me heart palpitations?

Then it popped up...6 months, 21 days...

Well, I do thrive under deadlines ;)

Just kidding...& even though marriage isn't my ultimate goal, I did feel a wave of hope & peace roll over me, maybe there is something to knowing, just not knowing the exact date.

What I do know for sure is that a loving man who desires to be in a committed partnership with me awaits & when our time is right our paths will cross.

Until then, I will enjoy this time & not fear its running out :)

xo