"Field of Dreams"-ing it

Ok, so we last left off with an anticipated round of "speed dating" coming up...

I was actually quite excited for this evening.

It had been a while since I had powered through a few dates in one evening & the idea was sounding fun again.

It was with a few Meet-up groups collaborating to bring together what sounded like a pretty cool group of people, mostly single professionals in their 30's & 40's - perfect!

(seriously, a job is a requirement these days! Am I right, ladies?!)

I liked the idea that it was through meetup.com versus a "speed dating" company, which I've tried & have always had fun at but it felt a lil less pressure-y somehow in my mind.

It was also conveniently located at a pub around the corner from the lot, so super easy to get dolled up after work & pop over.

I made sure to rsvp early when I saw the initial posting, I was ready!

They had a 'pay now' or 'pay at door' option, the later being far more expensive, so I tried to click thru & pay w/o much luck since the links kept circling me back.

I wasn't too worried & figured I 'd try again before the event.

It quickly 'sold out' to women, as is often the case, so I was thankful for my rsvp.

The night before I figured out the payment system, all was good, 

let's get our date on!

The next morning I picked out my casual, yet cute, hip with a twist of preppy dress that said 'yeah, lemme show you a lil sense of my style without trying too hard", I grabbed my sandals, & a pop of color clutch ~ all were handy in the car, easily ready to transform me from 'worker Carlie' to "fun, we should hang out Carlie'.

On the commute the next morning, during a particularly long stand still in the canyon, I was checking my email (only while stopped, I promise!).

There I saw an email from Phil.

Phil was writing to tell me that he was refunding me for that evening's speed dating event.

Apparently the system had a glitch & it was sold out to women & shouldn't have processed my payment.

I quickly wrote back explaining to him, 'oh no, I had already rvsp'd, I just preferred to pay in advance & not at the door. I'll see you this evening'

Sadly, no I would not...

Apparently the rsvp was meaningless w/o payment, which boggles me as to why they offered a 'pay at the door' option then...

This was the 2nd speed dating event this year that got cancelled on me on the same day of the event...

I will admit a few tears of frustration were shed as I crawled down the canyon...

I was really tired of getting excited, getting my hopes up & then being let down. 

I was questioning it all...why bother?

What was a girl to do, but turn to Mom.

As always, she came through with the best response ~ "obviously this was God's way of letting you know you weren't going to meet any one great there & He just saved you the money"

I love her!

Thanks Mom!!

So this, along with inbox messages from the likes of Spacelord67, Lazybum99, & DaBrothaMan on okCupid, I was feeling pretty down on the whole dating scene...

I've been on a journey of revisiting my Faith this year (thanks to a book from Mom), where I've working on being more trusting in God & his plan for me, instead of pushing through what I think I know is best...(it can be tough!)

Mom has been faithfully praying for him to come in to my life for, um 39 years now, so maybe its time I place a lil faith in God too that he'll send him when the time is right.

So I'm going to relax a bit, take some deep breaths 

& enjoy the summer fun that lies ahead :)

Of course, now that I've said that, you're gonna laugh at me for my "Field of Dreams"-ing it, but it doesn't hurt ;)

"If you build it, they will come"

I'm back at my old practice of buying an extra ticket for events I want to go to.

I figure 'cool, if he's around by then I'll have a great date to take to this show, this event, this opening, you name it...'

If he hasn't shown up by the time of said event, my lucky friends reap the benefits ;)

which is always a guaranteed good night out!

Its a win-win either way in my book!

Here's to believing!!

xo